Purposeless Pictures of Pretty

While waiting the two weeks until Supernatural has new episodes I am writing a fan fiction in which Ruby reflects on her human life and Dean discovers Sam has stepped up his game.

Here are some random lovely photos of the boys:

The Things We Learned From Episode 9 & 10

You can learn a lot from these two episodes. I think some major foreshadowing occured. At least, we got to see the brothers working as a team again. Sam is definately taking a lead and Dean is letting him be more of a partner. In "summer" Sam rescues Dean from Alasair's brutal beating by stabbing him in the heart. Unfortunately, this is the moment when we learn that the demon killing knife doesn't work on White Eyed Demons.

So the boys jump throuogh a window and make a run for it.

The Winchesters work together to plot their course of action in saving Anna.

A little help from the psychic Pamela doesn't hurt, though discovering Anna is an angel wasn't the best thing after Castiel burnt out her eyes.


So here are the things we learned from episodes 9 & 10:

! Dean did demonic things for 10 years.....

! Sam just did a demon...

! Angels can be killed, but with some sort of unknown, unavailable weapon, however, if angels

can be killed, then so can Lucifer.

! Sam’s hand of ipecac doesn’t work on white eye level demons, nor does Ruby’s knife





! Sam needs to learn a new trick or two in order to best Lillith

and Ruby is a willing teacher



! Whatever Sam has to do to tone up is something he’s not comfortable with

! Angels also have their own version of the hand of ipecac, begging those age old questions:

Was Azazel a fallen angel? Are Sam’s powers angelic?

! Anna can hear “angel radio”; does that mean Ruby can hear “demon radio”? Cause you know

she’s not on any demon’s friends list.

! If Ruby can hear demons, then why can’t Sam?

! Angels have Grace, and they loose it when they fall

! Grace can be worn in a vial around the neck, it can also be in a tree

! Lucifer’s Grace is presumable out there somewhere
! Both angels and demons can make choices, they have more free will than they think

! Dean is depressed, he’s willing to confess and cry in front of Sam

! Sam doesn’t know what to do next, but he’d kill an angel if he had to if that meant he’d protect Dean from Hell

! The Demons want Dean in Hell

On a completely superficial note:

! Sam has a perky little ass (according to Pam) He has massive back and shoulder muscles
(according to everyone whose watched his shirtless scene no less than 20 times)

! Dean hears Paul Rodgers voice singing in his head every time he has sex

! Sam and Ruby have had sex more than once. “That abomination you’ve been screwing.”
“What you and that demon bitch do in the dark.”

! Both “women” had pity for their Winchester brother which led to comfort and sex

! Anna fell from Grace for the cake and the sex (hope it was worth it)

Stupid speculation: Again!

In a show that gives us the “boy with the demon blood” and his brother who spent 10 years as a demon, where exactly might they go next?

I’ve seen this theory bantered about, and so I’m going to take off with it:

Sam’s gonna be Lucifer’s vessel and have to fight him from within. Sam has been groomed since age 6 months to be the best. Forced into hunting as a child and later as an adult, Sam has always been better trained than the other psychic kids. He is best suited to be able to handle the power of being possessed by Lucifer.

But let’s not stop there! Let’s throw a wrench into the plan, one that Lucifer himself might like. What if:

Dean and Sam are apostolic protectors of Lucifer’s grace?



We now know that angels possess the grace of God while they are in their heavenly form, but if they fall, the grace is lost or scattered. So theoretically Lucifer’s grace has to be out there somewhere, and I bet he wants it back. But where do you keep the grace of the number one fallen angel? That’s potent stuff to let fall on some random cornfield in Kentucky. I bet God has it locked up really tight: in the body’s of special living people.

And I’ll speculate one of them is Dean Winchester. And here’s how (and yeh, it’s hokey, but so was Anna’s grace in a vial hanging from Uriel’s neck).

The grace of Lucifer was passed to all the disciples who carry it within their bloodlines and pass it through the generations. It is scattered around the Earth, but not too many ancestors exist who carry it. However, Dean and Sam are the two left with the greatest power, they were descended from Mary Magdalene and Jesus. That’s why God wanted Dean out of Hell because once they are dead and in Hell, Lucifer an reclaim his grace from them. Fortunately, Lucifer needs more than one person’s grace. Though he has captured many over the years, the strongest is of Jesus’ bloodline. And he has never held that grace before. Now, the only two left on Earth with this blood are Sam and Dean. That’s why Mary smelled so good to Azazel, he knew. Lucifer prefers a Christ blood as he will be strongest when he takes the grace from within.

Now who are all the other psychic kids? They are all the apostolic carriers of the grace, purposefully marked by Azazel, tainted so they might go wrong and end up in Hell where Lucifer could get the grace, tainted through a blood rite that opens their earthly bodies to possible possession by Lucifer. There are many psychic kids because it isn’t easy to make it to the finish line and some are also back up for Sammy to be Lucifer’s vessel. But not the favorites. For Sam will have the strongest of abilities and the grace of Jesus’ bloodline inside.

How will Sam beat him? He will be trapped inside with Lucifer and he will have to overcome him. Dean will fight like crazy to save his brother and maybe we’ll have some divine intervention!
Things that happen in each episode are often a foreshadowing of events to come. Good example was the season two episode Crossroads Blues”. Later of course we see Dean make his desperate deal to save Sam. So I think that Anna’s lost grace will also come into play later on. Probably not this way, but it is fun to make guesses.

Thoughts of Twilight the Movie

Being a vampire is not easy. sure, you live forever, never grow old nor ugly nor fat. Sure with all that time on your hands you can have money and all the worldly goods you could deisre.

But does it buy happiness? Contentment? Grace?

Edward Cullen gets by. In fact for over 80 years he has existed as a vampire in the world of humans, but he doesn't really consider himself fortunate, he just makes the best of the situation. He's done many things in his 100 years of existance, been vegetarian, stalked evil humans and killed them, gone to college numerous times, traveled the world....but he's never found love.

Enter Bella Swan, the new human in Forks, Washington. Edward is smitten in the most vamiric way, he'd love to eat her. He gets over his animal urge and starts a romance with the unlikely girl (who represents all of us).

Why does Edward fit this page? This is a blog about those who are damned but long to be saved. Those who long for grace and redemption, and that is very much the story of Edward Cullen.

How was the movie? Pretty true to the book, limited of budget, weak film quality made me actually think of Supernatural. The ating could have been better since so much exposition was riding on facial expression and body language, and it fell short.

Still, over all, the magic was there and it was fun. I look forward to the sequel and hope the actors have been studying!

Running up that hill in a whole new light

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This is truly beautiful!

Wow! I don't really know what to make of this!

At live journal someone posted that baby Sam's eyes flashed yellow after Azazel gave him the demon blood. I'd never noticed, but sure enough I watched AHBL I in slow motion (you know, where they are in the nursury flash back) and it HAPPENED !!!!!!!!

Yeh, I'd be crying too Sammy if some nasty demon bled in my mouth and then killed my mommy!

There's another part of this that makes me wonder now:

Sam says: "I have demon blood in me?" And Azazel chuckles at him. Is it possible that Sam's got more than demon blood via drinking it? Was he born that way? Could he be a literal son of Azazel? Sure Azazel said he wouldn't have sex with Mary, but does that mean he wouldn't possess John long enough to make a little mix in the conception of the boy?

After all, he calls them his "psychic kids". And if Azazel is indeed a fallen angel, I'm guessing he has some pretty big powers.

What I do know is that Kripke is the magnificent bastard to have put that flash of yellow in Sam's eyes way back when. So I'm guessing Dean didn't hallucinate in "Yellow Fever" when he saw Sam's eyes flash at the end. But what that all means....I just don't know.

Sam's Betrayal

Sam was betrayed by his own mother ten years beofre his birth. His whole life he has been different, but trying to be normal.

Finding out he has demon blood could be enough to desroy any man, but Sam clings to the hope that by doing good he can somehow turn his curse around.

He believes in God...in angels...he prays. When Sam finally meets Castiel he acts like a fan, and what does he get in return? Castiel will not touch him at first, then when he does he says: "the boy with the demon blood."

Such denial and rejection would hurt anyone, but Sam is particularly afraid of rejection. Can the angels understand him? Or will they send him further down the dark path? Do they care?

Has Sam's faith been broken? Will it be enough if Dean reminds him that he should still have faith.

Sam is being denied grace for something beyond his control. Is this his destiny.....what he will become?

Supernatural Book Report: Season Two

Sometimes the strongest book is the first one, but in this "series", season two stands out for many reasons. The season begins with the aftermath of the Impala being hit by a semi and all three Winchesters injured. The audience quickly learns that Dean is on the edge of dying, trying to fight off a reaper that has come to call at the hospital. Sam tries his best to reach Dean's spirit on the other side, all while angrily arguing with his father whom he thinks is doing nothing to save Dean. This episode begins a season of secrets and deals. John gives his life and the colt to the YED in exchange for Dean being allowed to live.



As the season progresses, Dean is filled with guilt over being allowed to live, loosing his father and holding onto a secret so painful it starts to eat away at him. The two brothers argue over how to grieve and what jobs they should take. They fight off vampires and learn that not everything supernatural is neccessarily evil. They are arrested and Dean is nearly murdered by a corrupt police officer, and then they learn humans can be bigger monsters sometimes.

All along the way they start learning more about the cryptic information the YED gave to them while possessing their father. He called Sam one of his psychic children and said he had plans for him. This is worrisome to both brothers, but for different reasons. Dean expresses his fears in "Simon Said" when forced by another psychic kid to tell the truth, he expresses concern that he doesn't really know what is going on and he hopes Sam doesn't turn into a killer.

Sam is wondering what exactly the plans are and why his power is always realted to another psychic kid or a demon. Croatoan doesn't provide and answer to those questions, but it does show that if Sam were to go evil Dean would kill if neccessary, but he would kill himself also. Croatoan was about a demon virus that turned people evil. Sam was immune, and the audience learns it was all a test. After this crisis the brothers have a heart to heart talk and Dean spills the secret that has been eating at him for months. Before John died, he told Dean if he couldn't save Sam he'd have to kill him.

Sam doesn't take this too well and in the next episode heads off on his own for answers. He meets up with Ava, who has the same power of psychic dreams as he does. They don't learn much about thier powers or how it relates to the demon, but they come under the attack of Gordon, a righteous hunter who considers Sam a threat. Seems that some demons have talked and they have named Sam a potential supernatural threat. Gordon kidnaps Dean to bait Sam. Sam is careful, and is able to rescue Dean. There are a few oppurtunities for Sam to kill Gordon, but he proves himself honorable and gets Gordon arrested.

The brothers are united and fight ghosts and a shapeshifter over the next few episodes. Then Sam disappears. When Dean finds him it appears Sam has turned evil and killed another hunter. Sam begs Dean to kill him, but Dean can not. Even when Dean tracks Sam to Minnesota where Sam has attacked and bound fellow hunter Jo, Dean can not kill his brother. Dean knows why Sam is acting so strange, he douses him with holy water and it burns. Sam is possessed. "Born under a bad sign" was yet another test for Dean in regards to how he would deal with his brothers turn to evil. In the end, Sam is freed, but not without the knowledge of what the darkside might do to him.

Before we reach the end of the season the writers through in two powerful episodes that do tie to the main mytharc and the beliefs of the Winchester brothers. The first was "Heart" in which Sam and Dean investigate a werewolf only to discover it is the woman Sam has a crush on. Sam finally let's down his geek guard and has sex with Madison only to discover the monster in her can never be controlled. She does not have free will, she will always be a killer. Madison begs Sam to be the one to end her life, and he tearfully does this, knowing full well it could be his own destiny.

"What is and Never Should Be" is about Dean's experience in a dream world created by a Djinn. Dean's world consists of happiness he never had. His mother is alive, he has a house, a girlfriend who is a nurse, Sam is in law school, engaged to Jessica. Dean is very happy in his dream, but he comes to realize it is not normal and he must break free. He must leave this world because what he does saves people, and he is needed.

"All Hell Breaks Loose" was the season finale. Since the boys never found the YED, it came for them. Sam mysteriously disappears and wakes to ifnd himself in some sort of ghost town in South Dakota with four other psychic kids his same age. They have been brought there for a demonic celebrity death match. Only one will walk out alive. In the lcimatic end to part one, Sam and the other remaining "kid" Jake fight. Jake is seemingly unconscious, but as Sam walks towards Dean and Bobby we see Jake sneak up behind and stab Sam in the back, killing him.

Part II begins with Dean tearfully talking to Sam's corpse, telling him how he tried to watch out for him. Dean is desparate to have his brother back. He summons a crossroads demon and makes a deal. One yearleft on earth and then he will go to Hell, but Sam gets to live.

The now awakened Sam and Dean travel with Bobby to Wyoming to find the devil's gate and hopefully to stop Jake from opeing it and unleashing demons upon the earth. They locate Jake and in an opportune moment wrathful Sammy loads Jakes' body with a clip of bullets. This begins cold, ruthless Sam which we will see again in season 3 and 4.

The YED is there, advancing on Dean and Sam. Dean has the colt now and is preparred to send his mother's killer away to nothingness. The gate is still opened and demons are flying out at all speeds. One escapee is John Winchester who is able to wrestle with YED long enough that Dean shoots the fatal bullet and gets the revenge he's wanted for a long time. John's spirit disappears in a flash of light and they manage to close the gate.

In the end, Sam knows that he died, and that Dean only has one year left. Sam has come so far from the college student who wanted normal. He's discovered he has a demon inspired power, that he was fed demon blood as a baby and that he is part of the demon's plans. He has been arrested, and he is a fugitive from justice. He has died, and been resurected by his brother's sacrifice. Now he needs answers about his own destiny, and answers over how to save Dean. there is no turning back for Sam Winchester. He puts the past to rest and moves on.

Supernatural Book Report

If I were to write a book report on Supernatural I would treat each season as its own book.

In season one, we meet Sam Winchester, a young, handsome, academically gifted college student at Stanford. On Halloween, his older brother shows up and gives him the news that their father is missing. This worries Sam, despite his long estrangment from his family and the world they inhabit. It's a secret world he has never shared with his girlfriend Jessica. For Sam Winchester and his family are all hunters. They hunt the supernatural: witches, ghosts, demons, etc.... and Sam wants nothing to do with that life, he just wants to be normal. Sam is worried about his father and agrees to accompany Dean to Jerihco, CA to look for him. There they investigate a woman in white apparition and put her to rest. They do not find Dad and on Sam's insistance they return to Stanford because Sam has an interview for law school on that Monday.

Sam says his goodbys and returns to the apartment and his normal life. As he settles down on the bed, his face is serene, he has reconciled with Dean, fought off a ghost, and returned in time to see his swetheart. Something wet hits his face...and in an instant Sam Winchester is transformed from normal guy into vengeful hunter. Jessica is dead, burned in the same senseless killing that took his mother 22 years before. Sam knows now, he can't return to normal, can't go to the interview...for now, he needs to find Jessica's killer. He needs his revenge!

The season continues with Sam and Dean fighting a variety of evil from vengeful spirits, demons on airplanes, wendigos, and even bugs. In between we learn, along with the brothers, all about these legends. We learn who the boys are and how they relate to each other.

Sam longs to return to his life at Stanford, but not until he finds his father, for in finding his father he might find what killed Jessica and his mother. By the eighth show we realize John Winchester will not be easy to find. But by then there is a new complication. Sam has psychic dreams, and sometimes they come true. He dreams of their home in Lawrence, Kansas and of the peril the current owner might experience. So the brothers travel there and learn about their past while helping the woman who now inhabits their old home.In the end, Mary Winchester's spirit appears to her sons and extinguishes the poltergeist that has attacked the home and Sam.

And Mary says, "I'm sorry." to her son Sam. We will ponder the meaning of this until season four.

Next up is "Scarecrow." Sam wants to head to California to meet his father and Dean wants to hunt. Sam leaves and during his journey meets up with Meg who encourages his independence. Eventually, Sam learnes Dean is in peril and returns to save him from a pagan god. The two relieze they need each other. This becomes increasingly apparent in the next episode, "Faith" when Dean is electrocuted and fated to die. Sam will do anything to save him, including taking him to a faith healer who miraculously repairs Dean's heart at the cost of another's life. Here, the viewerr learns that Sam will do anything to save his brother and that God has a purpose for Dean.

The rest of the season helps the viewer understand the dynamics and complexity of the relationships between the Winchester men. By the conclusion of "Salvation" and "Devil's Trap" we know how the brothers relte and we know what these hunters must do.

The end with the Impala being crashed into was the most surprising and graphic endings/cliffhangers ever. Was it all for nought? Did finding Dad really yield the YED?

What comes next? Who is the YED? What does he plan on for Sam and the other psychic children? Will he destroy the Winchesters?


These were the unresolved questions of Season 2.

Saving things....the family business

"Bloodlust"

"Metamorphosis"

Collective thoughts over the episodes regarding Sam's potential decent into darkness. Or, honestly, I know there's a way to make this into a logically connected post. I think it was after reading that there are two episodes in which Dean punches Sam that I became interested in the connections between those episodes: Bloodlust and Metamorphosis. What was the purpose in the punch and was it received the same way?

I think it was all about Dean's frustrations with not being able to see Sam's point of view. They think differently, and Dean wants Sam to always see it his way. And when Sam doesn't, Dean secretly fears this is a part of Sam not wanting him, not needing him, potentially abandoning him. I mean, in "Bloodlust" Sam was: "No, we can't listen to Gordon, we can't do this or that." And in "Metamorphosis": Dean was the one saying. "why do you need me to help you hunt demons, you have Ruby". Either way, Dean was afraid Sam wouldn't need him.

Push push push Dean! You'll be the one sending Sammy down the dark path!

Dean tells him if it’s supernatural, they kill it, it’s their job. Sam says no, they’re job is hunting evil, and these things aren’t evil. It takes Dean much longer to come around to this way of thinking. But by "Sin City" he's starting to be more accepting of differing POV. Is this because Sam recognizes the supernatural in himself?

"Playthings" 2.11

"Dean, promise me..."

"Heart" 2.17

"I will do this, because she asked me to, and when the time comes,
you must be strong and do the same for me."

"Heart" 2.17
"Why can't there be a choice?" That's what you're thinking, but by season four Dean, you've changed your tune back to early season two's 'supernatural we hunt it....' DEAN! You're not Gordon! Stay sane!!!

THE JUDGEMENT FACES:

"Bloodlust"

"It hurts me to see you so angry and cold."

"Metamorphosis" 4.04

"If I didn't know you, I'd hunt you!"

THE REACTINS TO THE JUDGEMENT:

"Metamorphosis" 4.04

"That means, God doesn't like what you're doing."

"Dean, you actually enjoyed killing." [I don't think God approves]

Dean! You came back from the dead! You ARE a supernatural being! Stop listening to others (listening to Gordon was dumb and you learned that) and listen to your heart. You've always known what's best for Sam. You'd know if he were evil.

Search your feelings! You know this to be true!

And you know Dean, that there is plenty of good in him.

My Brain Hurts!

After viewing the latest Supernatural episode a few days ago I've been making my usual round of reading posts and opinions. And now my brain hurts! While the first 4 shows have helped answer many questions, they've created more.

Now we know Sam's got evil inside him. Okay, but what exactly does that mean? Is he the anti-Christ? Lucifer's vessel? Stronger than Lucifer? Can he overcome it?

We know he has powers: so are the powers inherently evil? WAs he born with them? What exactly did the blood feeding do? Was Gordon rigth? Why did Gordon decide he was not just a monster, but the anti-Christ? Is it better to use powers that are humane, even if they are demon given? What has Ruby taught?

Sam's honesty: Sure Sam shared a bunch with big bro', but what's he still hiding? What other nifty powers can he use? If Ruby was gone for part of the four months, what was Sammy up to besides drinking heavily.

The Bromance: Holy God, the bromance is even more stoked this season!!!! Just kiss each other...all right! These two are so frikin co-dependent it's crazy! Dean's fear of abdonment and Sam's need for approval. OMG! Will Dean's overbearing big bor' routine drive Sammy away as it did briefly in "Scarecrow"? Sam's used to making his own decisions and deciding on the hunts (notice it was Travis calling in Sam's help in "Metamorphosis" and Dean agreeing to go where Sam directed. Will we get more of "you're bossy...and short" this season?

That pain in the ass angel! Will Cass plant ideas into Dean's head or offer him "choices" that have no good options. "I can send you back to hell." kinda makes you a little more obedient. Of course that reminds me of Ruby's likely fear that Sam will send her back to hell. So we have two lap dogs for the opposition. Yeh...just great.

See why my brain hurts?